WHAT IS LOVE?

God is love.

That is what Bible scholars and pastors, preachers say. If you have God, you have love.

I have love, but am I given love?

I give my love even if I do not understand it.

I give myself to people who do not deserve me.

Am I ever given?

Am I ever the recipient?

What do I know about love?

NOTHING.

I do not know love when I see it.

I see someone, I like them, I love them, I give myself, they leave, I cling until I detach from them and from the rest.

And when I am given the slightest bit of the love I give, my heart warms up. I do not know whether to stay or to leave before they leave me.

Breath in, breathe out.

My breath is getting shaky.

My whole world is shaken.

What if I'm not giving love? Enough love to the people I would do anything for. Is that why they leave? Do I hold on too much? Do I do too much?

I stand alone, a spotlight on me with a flower in my hand, another spotlight on my friends who go on without me, my head hangs low, my flower withers, the curtain closes.

I have love left to give, but I do not know if it is love or if I have the strength to keep giving it.

What exactly is love?

Will I ever know it?

Will I ever understand it?

Can someone answer this? What is love?